To no one in general and someone in particular

"Close my eyes
underneath a full moon who shares her smile
here I'll wait just for her entrance
soft words spoke but heard aloud
she holds me here
but she can't hear what's on my heart screaming

can you stay for awhile or just forever
open eyes
you're gone

when I find you,
you go away
close my eyes for another day
just to find you
here I'll pray
make a wish for you to stay
just forever

reach to light
throwing smiles that will last forever
she renames mountains for me
afraid to leave
afraid to open my eyes to my loss
perfectly she holds my face screaming

can you stay for awhile or just forever
open eyes
you're gone

when I find you, you go away
close my eyes for another day
just to find you
here I'll pray
make a wish for you to stay

when I find you
you go away
close my eyes for another day
just to find you
here I'll pray
make a wish for you to stay
just forever."

Dear Kuru-san:

With all that has been happening around me lately, I have no possible excuses not to say I have ignored you. But I have to say I miss you. I am sorry that I haven't been able to talk with you properly in the meanwhile. This song is for you, I thought, to be a good way to say how I miss you, how I love you and how it is hard for me to be away from you. I want to set something. If for any earthly reason or not, for any reason at all, you decide that you don't want to be part of my life in the terms that we have set upon, we'll talk about it. No screaming, no arguing, no heart-breaking. People need to be honest with each other and themselves. When it comes, if it comes, just say it if you have too. Say it in my face if you want. Just don't leave me hanging on the edge, between the doubt and obsession.

As far as I've seen, love makes as many casualties than war, if not more and its wounds are far more deeper and harder to heal.


You may be wondering why this display of mine. I wanted to reassure myself and show you that... Well, I think this is a sort of a way to say 'I love you'. I know, I haven't said it before to you. But I will definitely will when I see you again. It will have such a meaning to me then. I don't need to think anymore. It's you who I want now, and if by any chance I don't look at you with the same eyes in some morning, I want you to know that when that happens, I will have loved you till then. I hope you understand this clumsy way of mine. I fear for those who are in the threads of such different fates than my own right now. I truly wish that all goes for the best and that no tears must be spilled other than to calm one's pain at the heart for only a moment.

太陽である、愛しています... ♥