08 April, 2010
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Hide and seek
Life has taken over, once again. Nonetheless, now it feels like I'm actually having a purpose in it. Happiness is not a solid concept, but I am beginning to see some of its effects, even if small ones.
There are some things still missing. Then again, perfection is not something that can be achieved but something to be achieved, little by little, in the details of our mortal lives.
Today, I smiled for no apparent reason. Or was there a reason? Not an immediate reason, I reckon but a reason that had been kept away, subconsciously in my mind. Funny how random thoughts, fruit of some creativity can bring both mirth and sorrow together in the same moment. However, just for a moment.
Life, as it is, is slowly being shaped, carved into some more... let's say... regular parameters. Yet, there are edges of and in me that cannot be filinged.
Today, my heart beat faster for no apparent reason. Or was there a reason?
No, there was no reason at all. Unfortunately, one cannot control the chemical and biological actions of its own body, when reactions are triggered even by the slightest sun beam. Because deep inside, the heart knows what the mind denies is true.
The mirth will always overcome the sorrow but the sorrow will never leave, becoming that constant regret, anger, the impotence before something that was doomed, even prior to its beginning or the thing that no one could stop from happening.
Things happen because they happen. Like the glass I dropped this morning before leaving, like the keys I forgot after I left, like the fall I took to avoid getting hit and hit another car, like the little notes randomly found making a little more bearable the absence of something dear, like the deadline I am running against in order to present a term paperwork... They just happen.
And in this eternal game of hide and seek I permeate my existence, not knowing if am I to hide forever or seek any other way to fool my heart.
What is done, is done.
Today, my heart beat faster for no apparent reason. Or was there a reason?
Yes, there was a reason.
There are some things still missing. Then again, perfection is not something that can be achieved but something to be achieved, little by little, in the details of our mortal lives.
Today, I smiled for no apparent reason. Or was there a reason? Not an immediate reason, I reckon but a reason that had been kept away, subconsciously in my mind. Funny how random thoughts, fruit of some creativity can bring both mirth and sorrow together in the same moment. However, just for a moment.
Life, as it is, is slowly being shaped, carved into some more... let's say... regular parameters. Yet, there are edges of and in me that cannot be filinged.
Today, my heart beat faster for no apparent reason. Or was there a reason?
No, there was no reason at all. Unfortunately, one cannot control the chemical and biological actions of its own body, when reactions are triggered even by the slightest sun beam. Because deep inside, the heart knows what the mind denies is true.
The mirth will always overcome the sorrow but the sorrow will never leave, becoming that constant regret, anger, the impotence before something that was doomed, even prior to its beginning or the thing that no one could stop from happening.
Things happen because they happen. Like the glass I dropped this morning before leaving, like the keys I forgot after I left, like the fall I took to avoid getting hit and hit another car, like the little notes randomly found making a little more bearable the absence of something dear, like the deadline I am running against in order to present a term paperwork... They just happen.
And in this eternal game of hide and seek I permeate my existence, not knowing if am I to hide forever or seek any other way to fool my heart.
What is done, is done.
Today, my heart beat faster for no apparent reason. Or was there a reason?
Yes, there was a reason.
Brainstorming
I love to express myself, whether through writing, singing, painting... whatever. I think it's cathartic, plus, a lot cheaper than the shrink... But even so, I've been slacking off at everything lately. It's hard to keep up with the things you love to do, opposed to the ones you really have to do.
18 June, 2009
"We love Lucy!"
Damn right we do! (^_^)
It's been a long time not coming here, I must say. It's becoming a (bad) habit of mine...
But anyway! Today I have an announcement!
It's with great pleasure that I present you...
"We love Lucy!", the new web comic by yours truly!
So go ahead and click it! Use your procrastination time well, by viewing this comic! XD
It's been a long time not coming here, I must say. It's becoming a (bad) habit of mine...
But anyway! Today I have an announcement!
It's with great pleasure that I present you...
"We love Lucy!", the new web comic by yours truly!
So go ahead and click it! Use your procrastination time well, by viewing this comic! XD
05 June, 2009
Poema-expresso
Palavras: vela, copo, quadro
Sim, é tarde.
Mais uma noite em claro.
Mais um vazio a somar aos
inúmeros buracos que compõem a minha alma.
Já perdi a conta aos copos que seguidos emborquei
na boca seca e amarga...
A chama de uma vela perdida na distância troça da minha fragilidade...
Que sabes tu,
Tu que iluminas e dás calor?
Tu, que em ti todos os olhos se fixam em espanto
por seres tão graciosa e ao mesmo tempo, mordaz?
Eu rio-me, só, enquanto me recolho na escuridão.
Deixo que o liquído cor de mosto atravesse mais uma vez
a minha garganta, áspera de tanto gritar.
Esse bálsamo inebriante.
Poderia até pintar um quadro, digno de museu
Como todos os que ficaram na história.
Os seus autores e eu, não somos tão diferentes assim.
A única diferença é que eles pintavam a sua loucura.
Sim, é tarde.
Mais uma noite em claro.
Mais um vazio a somar aos
inúmeros buracos que compõem a minha alma.
Já perdi a conta aos copos que seguidos emborquei
na boca seca e amarga...
A chama de uma vela perdida na distância troça da minha fragilidade...
Que sabes tu,
Tu que iluminas e dás calor?
Tu, que em ti todos os olhos se fixam em espanto
por seres tão graciosa e ao mesmo tempo, mordaz?
Eu rio-me, só, enquanto me recolho na escuridão.
Deixo que o liquído cor de mosto atravesse mais uma vez
a minha garganta, áspera de tanto gritar.
Esse bálsamo inebriante.
Poderia até pintar um quadro, digno de museu
Como todos os que ficaram na história.
Os seus autores e eu, não somos tão diferentes assim.
A única diferença é que eles pintavam a sua loucura.
17 May, 2009
Secret thoughts....
You are my private Audey Tautou. Like she was a muse to Chanel's campaign, you are the muse to my inspiration...
12 May, 2009
New partner blog
For all of you who are somekind of Photoshop (part-time like me) artists, I bring you a new blog, Omake no Bāsho. It's still relatively new but I recon it'll develop just fine, once the owner starts working her ass out! *fit of laughter*
In her words:
In her words:
This blog's purpose is to give other people to know about Photoshop art, tutorials, writing, fiction, anime, humor, music... Some of my passions! (^_^)b
Omake no Bāsho (click the image)
09 May, 2009
New layout
Hello everyone.
As you can see, I changed once more the layout of the blog. I'm never happy with it... Also, I've been very busy in the meantime, (academic issues) so I haven't been able to post, structure and update the blog.
See you guys around.
As you can see, I changed once more the layout of the blog. I'm never happy with it... Also, I've been very busy in the meantime, (academic issues) so I haven't been able to post, structure and update the blog.
See you guys around.
18 March, 2009
06 March, 2009
Is it just me?!
I present Anna Tsuchiya, some might know her some might not. She's a Japanese singer, model, actress... Any ways I'm with the blues tonight so I thought this could cheer me up.
As I was listening I noted I "heard" Taste my skin somewhere else... No kidding....
And it came to mind! It's that freaky girl band from Morangos com Açúcar (lit. Strawberries with Sugar, a Portuguese teen soap) who sings it! They totally ripped the song! Also, a note for teh skeptics, her album which features this song came out in 2005! Who came first, huh? (>__<)
Oh yeah... Those bloody guys connected to Morangos Com Açúcar crew/staff all came to say the song wasn't ripped and that we all should look to the authors names..
Yeah, right...
I say...
*I iz mad!*
Judge for yourselves....
Anna Tsuchiya - Taste my skin
Just "bloody freaking" Girls - Ser radical
As I was listening I noted I "heard" Taste my skin somewhere else... No kidding....
And it came to mind! It's that freaky girl band from Morangos com Açúcar (lit. Strawberries with Sugar, a Portuguese teen soap) who sings it! They totally ripped the song! Also, a note for teh skeptics, her album which features this song came out in 2005! Who came first, huh? (>__<)
PLAGIARISM IS A CRIME!!!
Oh yeah... Those bloody guys connected to Morangos Com Açúcar crew/staff all came to say the song wasn't ripped and that we all should look to the authors names..
Yeah, right...
I say...
KISS MY SHINY AND POLISHED BOTTOM IF IT WASN'T RIPPED!!
*I iz mad!*
Judge for yourselves....
Anna Tsuchiya - Taste my skin
Just "bloody freaking" Girls - Ser radical
